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Wednesday, September 23rd, 2009
1:21 pm	She stood, her long indigo cloak rippling against her sides. Her locks splayed and trembled in the foehn wind, but her face was calm. Looking inward, she searched for the frustrations and damage that had torn her for many, many years. She found these and observed them. They were still there. They would always be a part of her, she understood. Oddly, this did not disturb her now. Investigating, she gradually came to notice another part of herself, a new current: a stream of light, a cool replenishing wind. She saw it then for the first time, and she observed its motions. It was traveling over her corrosive injuries. The current was slowly, gradually, transforming her injuries into a kind of wisdom. The world was becoming broader, wider. The current took the form of a face; a face with great meaning to her. But she knew, the current was not the face. The current was her. (edited 2009-10-04) Current Mood: lyrical Current Music: Dubtribe - Physical and Kabalistic Forces of Creation (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 15th, 2009
5:14 am	Sick dreams What I find most interesting about being sick is the dreams your brain comes up with. I went to bed about 5 hours ago. Shortly thereafter, I found myself writhing in my blankets, not sure if I was extremely cold or extremely hot. I dreamed I was an asian-style dragon, and I was struggling to keep my snaky, segmented body together. I only had consciousness in my head, and the rest of my body was trying to pack up and leave. Shortly after this, I found out I was a whole country of people, and I realized I needed a ruling party to take charge and fix my ailing health care (social commentary!). At first, there were dozens, perhaps hundreds, of political parties fighting and pandering to the top. Most were crazy, few were sensible. As time went on and I began to feel a little better, two parties gradually emerged from the fray: a communist party (it seemed sort of Stalinist in its authoritarian, hardline stance), and a capitalist, somewhat fascist party. The other parties fell away and these two parties kept fighting for control of the country (my body). Each one wanted to take credit for crucial actions the country made (like going to the bathroom), and I think they had actual sway on when I did such real-life things. I don't know who won in the end. I kept waffling back and forth between the two, but I think I eventually, grudgingly, allowed the fascist party to take me to the bathroom. Current Mood: sick (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, September 11th, 2009
4:51 pm	A gust from an alluvial fan strikes your body with a spray of hot sand. The stratosphere oppresses overhead, the dust of distant centuries drags you through the winding dunes. As you reach the crest, a wisp of disintegrated rock strokes your leg gently and passes, comforting you, reassuring you that there are no oases and you will die. Current Mood: human Current Music: Bombay Dub Orchestra - Feel (Thievery Corporation Remix) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, January 10th, 2009
6:00 pm	A friend of mine and I were talking on IM and I made up a silly little story for her. I don't think it was particularly bad, so I'm copying it here: ( oops, I forgot to lj-cut this thing. Sorry! ) Current Mood: full Current Music: ceiling fan tapping (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 5th, 2008
11:40 pm	Random nonsense written on the train to Portland, Nov. 2-3 ( You are about to view content that may not be appropriate for minors. ) Current Mood: random (3 Comments |Comment on this)
9:11 pm	Mojave trip - day log and pictures The following is a day-by-day log I wrote while on my backpacking trip through the Mojave Desert. It is long and probably boring, but people have requested details, so here they are. ( On the planet Mojave, we will need Desert Power. ) Current Mood: accomplished (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 26th, 2008
6:54 am	Unexpected internet appearance I'm in the Sacramento train station right now, waiting for my next connection (they have free wifi here). Everything is going extremely well. So far I have endured drunken merry-making next to me in the observation car (I recorded a bit for background noise in future projects: http://kotra.wuargh.com/noises/train%201.ogg ), been extolled to of the virtues of accepting Jesus, and probably ruined my camera by stupidly packing it with a tomato, which exploded messily. All in all, I've been having a good time. No internet for 10-13 days, beginning now. The Mojave Desert is not yet equipped with it. This wooden bench is hurting my butt. Current Mood: uncomfortable Current Music: boring conversations of nearby strangers (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 27th, 2008
7:43 pm	I saw a commercial today. This in itself is noteworthy, as I normally I hit the mute button immediately when the commercials start, and turn my attention elsewhere. I have an almost irrational hatred of commercials, and will go to great lengths not to watch (or, god forbid, hear) them. Anyway, in this commercial, an actor bit off the end of a roll of dimes and proceeded to munch on them. As this was occurring, I happened to notice the following words in fine print underneath the metal money-masticating man: "Dramatization. Do not attempt." ... Do people really attempt to consume hunks of metal because it was in commercial? Do these people really then sue the advertising company for their own lack of judgement? Are we really so impressionable and litigious of a society, or are the advertisers just paranoid? PLEASE LET IT BE THE LATTER! FOR THE LOVE OF CUCUMBERS PLEASE LET IT BE THE LATTER!!!! Sorry. Current Mood: poisoned by commercials (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 23rd, 2008
8:12 am	dream some people hate it when people talk about their dreams. If you are one of those people, you will hate this entry. I had a dream with John Cleese (of Monty Python) in it, but I couldn't remember his name. I could remember the names of other Pythons: Eric Idle, Michael Palin, and the Terries, but not his. Eventually, I remembered that the sixth member of Monty Python (Graham Chapman) was named John Lennon, so I deduced from this that John Cleese's name was George Harrison. The John Cleese in my dream frowned at this, but I didn't care, I had figured it out. It's hard to remember names in dreams. Current Mood: lucid (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 8th, 2008
8:11 pm	I ate half a large watermelon in one sitting and now my poop is red. At least, I hope it's because of the watermelon. Current Mood: red (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 26th, 2008
9:01 pm	Cologne salesman I forgot to mention. At the park, a cologne-hawker tried desperately to maintain my interest in his wares despite my continuous protestations. "No, I don't like cologne," "no, I don't like to smell good," "no, I don't want to try it," "no, I don't want to give you my opinion on the cologne you just sprayed on my hand without asking me first," "no, I don't want to give you my opinion on the cologne you just sprayed on a piece of cardboard." Also, he kept calling me "boss". "Boss"? Didn't people stop calling strangers that in the 40s? Current Mood: extant Current Music: Asa watching TV (Comment on this)
7:59 pm	Hello, Jimmy. Hellow. Today we have some pictures. They follow: ( You may click here in order to view the pictures! ) Current Mood: Simpsonesque in color Current Music: Asa's water boiling over and making hissing noises as it hits the burner (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 29th, 2008
2:12 pm	at the grocery store today, there was a talkative checkout lady. She was talking to the people in front of me about how (according to her, I haven't verified this yet), prices on grocery foods in the US had risen 4%, the highest in a while. She then said that in places like Singapore and West Africa, prices for foods had tripled, and there were riots going on now because of it. She then said that in particular, meat and milk had exploded in price there. The lady ahead of me in line responded with a comment like "Maybe they'll go vegan", to which the checkout lady said that most people would go cannibal before they went vegan. What? Anyway, she continued by saying that it's really difficult to be a vegan, "qualifying" her statement by saying she knew someone who is vegan. Not interested in getting in a conversation with the lady, I didn't mention that I was a vegan, and that it's not really that hard. But I didn't, and I sort of regret it. Oh well. ---- On the subject of veganism, I'm not really sure if I should describe myself as a vegan. I've been thinking about this every since I decided to avoid dairy and eggs completely a few weeks ago. Since I'm only avoiding these animal products, and not being entirely strict about it, I'm not sure if I can accurately say I'm a full-blown vegan. Also, I continue to eat honey, and have no problem with it, whereas many vegans would say that honey must be excluded as well in order to be a true vegan. I think I've decided to just call myself "mostly vegan", sort of like "mostly dead" or "mostly harmless". "Strict vegetarian" works too, but that's what I called myself before. I think I label myself more than I should. Labels can be helpful, but I think as a society we rely on them too much, and this may have a dehumanizing effect. Current Mood: shooting smoke plume out ear Current Music: car noises (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 26th, 2008
2:39 pm	here is a pseudo-meme copied from mislih, who copied it from audesapere. Basically, I just describe how I met everyone on my friends list. abab: met at the Circle in (then) New Haven (NH from now on) in Furcadia, about 4 years ago. Haven't talked to her in a while, unfortunately. auorachan: met in secret circumstances, about 2 years ago. Later met on Furcadia, in Naia probably. Still talk. dwapook: met at the Pond in NH, about 7 years ago. Probably the oldest acquaintance here. Met in person twice, once when I was visiting my girlfriend 5 years ago, and again when I went to Further Confusion in 2006. Haven't talked in a while. Really great guy. elevationist: Met somewhere in NH, not sure when. Haven't talked in a while. jcritter: Met at place by the Furre Grinder next to the Watering Hole (WH) in NH about 5 years ago under mysterious circumstances, then under not mysterious circumstances in the same place 2 years ago. Still talk occasionally. This person is kickass! judasiscariot: I'm not quite sure who this is. Loch? If so, met in that same place in NH 3 years ago. Haven't talked in a while, obviously. keresism: Met at about the same place and time as dwapook. Met in person at least once, when I was down there for Furcon 2006. This person is also kickass! However, she seems to be ignoring me. Oh well. lordesaccordion: Met through mislih about a year ago. Still talk, for great justice! mislih: Met in the same obsequious manner as jcritter. Met in person about every day since March of last year. nathew: Met through mislih about a year ago. He eats robots for breakfast. omfgitskiyi: Met in the same way as auorachan. Met in person half a year ago. Perhaps we shall meet again, young friend. postman: Met in similar style to jcritter. Haven't talked to in a while. I get the impression I am now disliked by this person for some reason I am not aware of. risen_again: this person does not exist. ryu_no_tenshi: Met at the non-WH place in NH about 2-3 years ago. Haven't talked in a while. sarahsaturn: Another of my oldest friends. Met at the Pond in NH about 7 years ago. Have known throughout most of my 8-year Furcadia grand tour. Still talk rarely. seamora: Met through tafyrn, at the near-WH place in NH. Met in person at Furcon 2006. We've never talked a lot, she seems keen though. seiyaryu: Met through dwapook, probably at the Circle in NH 3 years ago. Haven't talked in a while. sturmwalzer: Met like jbuttons. I still think this person is excellent, but she probably doesn't share the sentiment. I blame the polarizing nature of Hawthorn! tafyrn: Met at the prodigious pseudo-WH in NH, about 2-3 years ago. Rarely talk, unfortunately. The moral of this story is that I suck at keeping in touch with people. Current Mood: procrastinatory Current Music: Beanfield - Planetary Deadlock (11 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 18th, 2008
1:52 pm	I exist on Flickr apparently http://www.flickr.com/photos/somafm/1572590120/ you may recognize it from a previous post. Current Mood: green-faced, with Xs for eyes Current Music: Glen Brown - Leggo The Herb Man Dub [Small Axe vs. Terminal Head Remix] (Comment on this)
Monday, March 17th, 2008
6:28 pm	complaining, it's what LJ is for On my daily bike trip to to work today, I ran over a huge pothole. I remember thinking "I shouldn't do that, I might get a flat tire." I didn't seem to have a flat tire, so I considered myself lucky and continued on with my daily commute. I got to work late because I had overslept. I don't like coming in late, it makes me feel guilty. ( More minor inconveniences that I proceed to expound upon in great detail in order to waste your time! ) Current Mood: pessimistic Current Music: the heavenly trumpets of my posterior (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 15th, 2008
3:30 pm	Independent candidates that have no chance in this or any other presidential election There should be an Al Gore/Ralph Nader independent ticket just so that their slogan can be "An Unreasonable Truth from an Inconvenient Man." This is a not-very-funny joke in reference to their film documentaries An Inconvenient Truth and An Unreasonable Man. ( Read more... ) Current Mood: political Current Music: cars wooshing past (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 9th, 2008
2:03 pm	Pixels arranged in a configuration that, when viewed from a sufficient distance, form pictures!! Here are a bunch of pictures. Most of them were taken early December. That gives you an idea of how long it has been. It has been a long time! The time that has passed has been — anyway, let's just get to the pictures. ( Get to the pictures! ) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, January 4th, 2008
10:52 am	more of video I'm not completely sure why, but I find this video by Bob Odenkirk (an amazing comedian who co-created/starred in Mr. Show, among other things) hilarious and very well-constructed (warning, a bit of profanity): ( Read more... ) Current Mood: sick again, but less so! Current Music: kotra and Mandaliet - Musics Won! (original film score) (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 12th, 2007
12:24 pm	Wideos Apparently I never made another post about videos I've made since that time a while ago. So, in ascending chronological order: Miscellaneous N Why I'm Voting for Outtakes Miscellaneous Salmon Miscellaneous O Miscellaneous P Miscellaneous Q I play a music! Miscellaneous R (I did this last night) I hate the last three the least! Also, I am home sick from work today. Want some mucus? I have a surplus of it. Current Mood: sick Current Music: Isaac Hayes - Make a Little Love to Me (4 Comments |Comment on this)